Before I forget...

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The lovely ladies above gave me the SS award and I am to pass it on to "five most deserving bloggers".

Well FIRST OF ALL, every single blogger is deserving. So I'm gonna go crazy and just tell you to look to the right of my page and just check 'em all out. They're all good. I know this is a lazy cop-out, I'm sorry!

One Food Over the Cuckoo's Nest

Okay, seriously? Today was annoying because I’m forgetful. I packed all my gym stuff and had it with me, made a nice lunch and snack for post-work pre-gym drive home…and guess who forgot the food on the kitchen table. This kid. Hrrmph.

All I had with me from breakfast to dinner was a granola bar. I ate it, but…meh. I had to run a lot of errands and walked a lot today (maybe 45 minutes to an hour in total) but I’m not really sure how to count it.

I refuse to go to the gym if I don’t have anything in my stomach – it just seems like too dangerous of a thing to do. So I went home to eat dinner (the lunch that I packed myself) and now I’m too tired (because I didn’t eat enough today and I didn’t want to load it all up this evening) to go to the gym.

I am totally making excuses like a champ right now. I’m also coddling myself because I got rejected from not one but TWO jobs today. I’m super good at pouting, you guys. It’s the only-child-that-never-grew-up in me, which is like 75% of me.

Doing nothing is the only thing I can muster right about now - what I want to do is go downstairs and fix myself a giant slice of pie and ice cream. Or scour the house for chocolate. But I'm not going to do either.

Breakfast:

*quaker instant oatmeal – cinnamon roll flavor

Snack:

*Nature Valley Honey N Oats granola bar pack (2 bars)

Dinner:

*pizza sandwich: arnold’s thin, 9 pieces turkey pepperoni, 1 stringed-string cheese, 2 tbsp marinara
*cup veggie crunchers

Meal My Kisses

Today I ate pretty minimally, but it was all healthy. And to be honest a day of light food feels pretty good. It was another day at my friends’ condo. I had breakfast and went over there, and said no to the delivery pizza and instead came home to make myself lunch and then went back over there, then had dinner with leftover snacks of my own – I refused the Chick-fil-A that my friends were buying for everyone for helping.

So the option to eat poorly was there but I said no, and I’m pleased with that.

I didn’t exercise, but I was busy painting all day, up and down ladders and I am a little bit sore!

I get a day off of painting tomorrow, but it’s only because I have some temp work lined up! I’m gonna get a good night’s sleep and I plan on packing gym clothes and go there straight from work tomorrow.

Water intake was only 60oz because our water supply at the condo (the fridge and even the sink) were underneath plastic drop-cloths and sealed off with painters tape for half the day so I had to ration my water bottle! It was kind of ridiculous. But I only had water today (besides the milk with breakfast), so that’s a plus.

Breakfast:

* egg sandwich: 1 LCL wedge, egg subst, ketchup, 1/8 of an avocado sliced, toasted arnold’s thin
*banana
*glass of milk

Lunch:

*cup cottage cheese
*sandwich: turkey breast, avocado, tzatziki sauce

Dinner:

*gala apple
*18 all bran crackers

Weigh-in

Okay, I will get back to doing three things soon:

*my regular sometimes-clever post titles
*commenting on your blogs
*posting my food as normal (heh, Sara, that made me laugh)

Sorry for the freak-out, and thank you for your comments, they helped. I went to bed feeling relatively better, and after a night of good sleep I feel better.

Except for the scale thing, which is expected!

225

I just have to remember I'm still the same person that's losing weight, that cares about her health, that is the same person last Monday as she is today, even after a "bad" weekend.

I had a good breakfast, and now I'm off for more condo renovations. I know my friends will be happy when they can finally move in and be done with the projects, and I think I will be too. Yeesh.

Anyway, thanks again for all your support - it really helped these past couple of days! I have been too tired and worn down to give it to myself.

Heart.

Meh.

Okay, we're officially on Day 2 of "Laura Ruins Her Efforts Watch 09".

For breakfast I had half a cup of veggie crunchers. They were not good.

Yeah. For lunch I finished the chinese food I had yesterday.

For dinner I had Chipotle. (Barbacoa fajita burrito with corn salsa, sour cream and cheese)

In between I had cheez-its. And diet coke. And one 12oz cup of water.

Right now I feel gross and tired. I was painting ALL day at my friends' condo. I am wiped and I feel gross from the food I chose to eat.

I don't know what to think. I wasn't talking any game last night - I really did feel it was behind me and I was ready to be healthy again. When I woke up today...I didn't want any part of it.

I don't know what to say. I can't say I'm going to get back on track tomorrow because I thought that yesterday and look what happened. But I'm not exactly about to plan for another day like this.

The only positive thing I did today was bring an apple and some all-bran crackers over with me to my friends' place. I didn't eat them, but I brought them...so this barely counts at all.

I'm disappointed in myself. The food makes me feel gross and the emotions in response to choosing said food makes me feel gross and it's not easy to break that cycle.

I'm gonna get on the scale tomorrow morning and deal with the consequences and post it like I always do.

...I didn't want to write this post. I'm kind of embarrassed because I thought I was better than this.

*Boys, stop reading* I don't know what part of me is rebelling against all the work I've put in the past three months. Maybe the raging PMS side of me, I don't know. I don't remember going nuts last month. Gah. It may be a case of raging PMS, because I'm either constantly irritated or teary eyed over nothing, and I am craving the most ridiculous things that are terrible for me that I never want otherwise. And combined with working so hard and being tired, I give in.

Maybe I shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all, other than myself.

Right now I'm craving cold, refreshing, light things. That is at least a good sign. But I'm always more motivated at night for some reason, so regardless of those wants I have now tomorrow morning could turn into an entirely different beast. I hope not. I guess we'll see what happens.

Sigh. Sorry guys. This sucks.

The Ugly Foo(d)th (okay, this one's a stretch, I'll admit!)

Today. Ugh. It’s now technically tomorrow. 3am and I am just getting home…yikes.

I’m going to be completely honest. Remember how I was okay with Wednesday’s number, and it’s just a day, and blah blah? Well, I have gotten on the scale every morning since Wednesday just to see what the deal was (just because I only report once a week doesn’t mean I’m not constantly curious!) and was consistent at 221.2. Even Friday morning after Thanksgiving. I look this morning…it was a fucking pound HIGHER than Friday. Are you kidding me?

I was okay with Wednesday's number. But not with that one.

I was pissed. So I decided to be a five year old and act out all day, by eating whatever I damn well pleased. It’s just – yesterday was not easy on me to keep myself in check and get to the gym…and this is what I get?

So I’m probably cutting off my nose to spite my face. But I got it out of my system and I’m ready to get back to eating healthfully and exercising tomorrow and I just hope it doesn’t take a big chunk out of the work I’ve done. And I’ll just be patient on those progress pictures.

For breakfast, I had a GIANT bowl of stuffing. Seriously enormous. I then went back over to my friend’s new condo to help paint and sand things, and I had a couple of Diet Cokes, and brought some chocolate-covered raisins over with me. One, to eat some, but two, to get most of them out of the house so that when my sanity returns they will be gone!

So there were chocolate raisins and Diet Coke.

THEN we ordered Chinese for lunch and I got chicken lo mein and pretty much dominated it. I didn’t eat the entire thing, but I ate a lot of it…it wasn’t great on my stomach and I won’t be missing it now that I’ve had it, that’s for sure.

More chocolate covered raisins and a Diet Coke later, I went over to a different friend’s place for dinner – I picked up Subway and had a 6-inch turkey on wheat with lettuce, light ranch, black olives and banana peppers, and I had the guy take some of the bread out. Oh and I had some pretzels with honey mustard and iced tea. So dinner wasn’t really that bad. I considered the ranch on the sandwich and the pretzels/honey mustard the indulgent part.

After dinner and quality time there, I went back to my friend’s new condo for MORE painting! And there were more chocolate-covered raisins and a Diet Coke I think.

And now I’m finished. I don’t feel completely awful but I don’t feel great either.

My main emotion right now is worry. I’m worried that I’m hitting a plateau and that would really be frustrating. Because these next twenty pounds are really important to me. The last time I was taking off these twenty pounds (220s to 200 or so) I really started having fun, and seeing the changes in my body, liking myself in pictures, and my confidence grew a lot.

I’ve really been looking forward to this part and…I just don’t want the hassle of a plateau. I really don’t.

I won’t stand for it! Maybe this day of bingeing will help (*HA* says my inner voice). It’s definitely pulling the ol’ switcheroo on my body – oh you like nutrients? Here have MSG instead! – so as I’m back on track tomorrow my body can realize how good it’s had it these past few months and behave itself!

(Meanwhile…it was just my scale freaking out and I ruined a perfectly good week for nothing because I irrationally flipped out over a number….I’ll choose to ignore this option because I’M ALWAYS RIGHT. Or something…)