12-26 wrap up, and, a brief conversation

so i bought new running/gym shoes today, because my old ones were giving me craaazy hurtz in my arches. once i had a pair selected (with the help of the store guy), i asked:

me: so what's their shelf-life?

store guy: they say about 400-450 miles

me: HAHAHA, SO, FOREVER?

store guy: ..........

me: .................

store guy: probably 8 months to a year?

me: sounds good.

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lunch: trader joe's bistro salad (kale, edamame, scallions, dried cranberries, toasted almond slivers, and a lemon herb dressing)

snack: fage greek yogurt with strawberry goji

dinner: stir fry with 2 eggs scrambled, with sriracha (the stir fry was made with a little light olive oil and a tbsp or two of soy sauce)

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also, i did day one, week 2 of c25k. with  my new shoes! and it was hard. really hard. the final interval, i ran for 15 seconds, caved and walked for 30 seconds, before i finished the final 45 seconds of running. to make myself feel better, i tacked on an extra minute of running after i finished the walking portion and some of my cool down. i can't leave well enough alone.

but i'm happy i went to the gym, and started the second week of c25k, even if it did kick my ass.

by the way, part two

i totally caved. i looked.

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the good: it's not as high as i thought it would be.

the bad: 247.4

the good: i'm back on track so far today**, and it feels pretty easy.

the bad: i haven't exercised since last thursday.

the good: **so far today:

cup of pumpkin spice coffee with half and half, and 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with however many red seedless grapes that is.

the bad: i totally should have titled last/this post "by the WEIGH" - how did i miss that opportunity?!

the good: i'm feeling better about myself these days.

the bad: christmas sometimes feels lonely for me . once i got the taste of dating someone during the holidays (that was all the way back in 2010) it's hard to go from that to back to single again. even if i feel better about myself, it still isn't fun to not have someone to go home to. i find christmas lights extremely romantic, damnit!

the good: the gift i got my parents made my mom cry :) granted, she's a crier, so i could have made her a macaroni necklace and she probably would have welled up, but, still.  :) happy christmas!

by the way...

last tuesday, i weighed myself and i was at 244. i'm afraid to check this week. i know it will be higher, since, at the very least, my carb intake has gone up so much since saturday.

so, i'm curious to see what it is, but i'm also afraid of shaming myself. i want to stay on top of it but i don't want to place too much emphasis on it. i want to see the damage done but i also DON'T want to see the damage done.

what would you do?

the rest of 12-24 and 12-25!

well, once again, no pictures. i would say i took a break with healthy eating, especially today.

so rounding up christmas eve, last night for dinner, we went to our family friends' house and i had:

(appetizers) crackers, cheese, dip (i would say 10 crackers maybe, with as many slices of cheese? maybe less? i'm not sure)
two glasses of champagne

dinner: glass of red wine, and a piece of beef tenderloin (5-6 oz probably?) 2/3 a cup of mashed potatoes, spinach salad, and broccoli casserole. i *think* that was it...i feel like i'm missing something though.

the dessert i mentioned yesterday? i had two bites that i stole from my family friend's plate ;-) it was more like, we said we'd share, and i made him eat most of it. i feel/felt fine about it.

12/25

breakfast: coffee with milk, and i had half of a cinnamon bun (non-iced), and two eggs over-medium with ketchup.

lunch: two hot dogs (in potato bread buns) with ketchup, and like 3 handfuls of kettle cooked potato chips with ranch dressing, and a diet root beer

"snack" aka "a relapse in compulsive eating": sad nachos, made with white corn tortilla strips and mexican four cheese blend, and a diet coke. even as i was eating it, i knew it was wholly unnecessary and out of boredom.

right before dinner, i ALMOST had a slice of the leftover pie from yesterday, but i changed my mind. i had one sole white chocolate peppermint m&m instead. shrug.

dinner: beef stroganoff with about 1/2 cup "dirty" rice, with about 1 cup of the beef/sauce part. and julienned carrots with basil and butter, romaine lettuce/cucumber/avocado salad with poppyseed dressing, and two crescent rolls.

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i had a wonderful christmas day, and i am hoping that tomorrow i won't feel too out of sorts about going back to salads, healthy things, a LOT less carbs, etc. thankfully I still feel okay about no/very little sugar so i don't anticipate that being a problem. also, mind you, i am fully aware that alcohol often can have a fair bit of sugar, but, i'm fine to just restrict myself on desserts :)

12-24 lunch

a coworker was nice enough to treat the few of us in the office today for lunch! this is panera's fuji apple chicken salad.

12-23 and 12-24 so far

i have NO pictures from yesterday! and apologies for the lack of posting, but i was over at my parents house all day (and spent the night there) and didn't have access to a computron to get all this up. but i can tell you what i ate:

breakfast/lunch: bologna and cheese sandwich (3 slices cheese/bologna, mayo, lettuce, 2 slices whole grain bread) with progresso chicken and corn chowder soup

snack: about a cup of goldfish

dinner: grilled cheese with ham, about 10-15 tater tots.

also i had like 3 or 4 diet root beers throughout the course of the day. and only one bottle of water. i almost feel worse about the soda than i do the food. the thing i know i overdid was the sandwich - i didn't need 3 slices of each thing.

i'm still pleased i avoided the sugary stuff in the house (aspartame-ridden diet soda aside) - there is SO much of it. white chocolate peppermint m&ms, like 3 different kinds of cookies, candy canes, etc. my mom already told me what tonight's dessert will be (peppermint ice cream pie, with an oreo cookie crust) and THAT is going to be tough to avoid. peppermint flavored things are my favorite. i'm still on the fence about whether or not i'll have any.

my mom also already told me that my stocking** will be filled with candy. but that i can just leave at their house, i don't have to take it with me. or bring it into the office, or something.

anyway, on to today. the crappy thing is that i have to be at work until 2pm. but the good news is that i can at least have a morning/afternoon back on track.

breakfast was yet again, a gala apple and 1-2 tbsp of peanut butter (pb&co's mighty maple) on whole grain bread, and a cup of coffee with half and half.

i also tweeted this picture. just because i'm AT work on christmas eve, doesn't mean i'm doing any :D

** what traditions do you and your family have for what goes into your stockings? in my family, it's always been whatever you can find at CVS. basically that means toiletries, and candy. and for some reason we've also always gotten a piece of fruit at the bottom of our stockings. ...that none of us ever eat. but we get it every year. not sure why my mom santa still does it. :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!