Breakfast:
*Egg subst. with spinach – with a little ketchup. (I think I am officially over my egg subst. phase. I need to embrace the fake-muesli craze or find something else to make for breakfast.)
Lunch:
*grilled veggie wrap – Flat Out Light Italian Herb wrap, LCL wedge spread, spinach, and grilled eggplant, zucchini, and onions. SO GOOD.
*Carrots and Sabra individual hummus pack
Dinner:
*Stuffed red bell pepper (stringed-skim mozzarella string cheese, black beans, brown rice, corn, cilantro, chili powder)
Easy breezy. Lots of veggies, and I’m happy about that. I went with my dad to do some pre-The Family grocery shopping and was able to pick up zucchini, yellow squash, butternut squash, Flat Out Light wraps in Italian Herb (SOOO GOOOD), eggplant, and a small thing of Chobani yogurt, plain. I haven’t had it yet, but I’m always intrigued by janetha b’s use of it over at meals and moves and I wanted to give it a go.
My mom was really sweet today. I quietly asked her to tell me what meals she had planned for this upcoming week, and she told me and then said, “I wanted to make things so that you didn’t really have to eat them if you didn’t want to” and I responded “Thanks Mom…I just kinda want to do my thing and fly under the radar” and she smiled at me and said “I know.” I don’t give that woman enough credit sometimes.
26 September 2009
I'm on the lam...
That’s right…I’m on the LAM. Losers.Above.Measurements!
As I briefly mentioned in yesterday’s post and exhaustively mentioned in other posts, I am freaking out just a tiny bit about The Family’s arrival. And by “just a tiny bit”, I mean my anxiety could power Tokyo for a solid three years.
I had a rare moment of self-…actually, I don’t know what the term would be really, but I mean to say, I momentarily felt that I need to do right by myself emotionally this week. And it really is ridiculous that I would let The Family define me, especially by something like my size. I should define me – and certainly not by my size. Or weight. Or measurements.
So, I think I need a little reminding. Sometimes we all do. I’m going to spend all week repeating and rereading the paragraph below so I don’t forget. I already feel better. Even if all of it isn’t 100% ingrained in my mind or soul or even just a fraction of my pinky finger, I’m gonna rock the always popular Fake It Til Ya Make It strategy!
I am: Kind. Good with animals. Funny. Caring. Understanding. Goofy. I love: The arts. My dog. Voting (geeky pleasure of mine). Photographs. Water. London. Cooking. Learning. My friends. My parents. Reading. Writing. DC. I am loved by: My friends. My parents. My dog. I have goals and I am working my ass off to achieve them even when it feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I had the courage to quit my job and pursue something I care about. I paid for my own Masters degree. I can fold a fitted sheet!
All of these things that make up ME, and not a single one having anything to do with the number on the scale or the width of my hips - even though like Shakira, they don't lie. Of course this is not to say that measurements aren’t helpful ways of monitoring progress – I mean, the name of the effing blog is 100in12! But I just…need to focus on these things this coming week. A person can only make you feel bad if you let them, right? I won’t be defined by the size of my jeans, and if someone tries to, that is their personal problem and I feel sorry that they can only think so shallowly and narrowly.
Are YOU on the LAM!? Hehe. (I don’t even want to tell you how I thought of this. My train of thought is exactly like the bing.com commercials.)
As I briefly mentioned in yesterday’s post and exhaustively mentioned in other posts, I am freaking out just a tiny bit about The Family’s arrival. And by “just a tiny bit”, I mean my anxiety could power Tokyo for a solid three years.
I had a rare moment of self-…actually, I don’t know what the term would be really, but I mean to say, I momentarily felt that I need to do right by myself emotionally this week. And it really is ridiculous that I would let The Family define me, especially by something like my size. I should define me – and certainly not by my size. Or weight. Or measurements.
So, I think I need a little reminding. Sometimes we all do. I’m going to spend all week repeating and rereading the paragraph below so I don’t forget. I already feel better. Even if all of it isn’t 100% ingrained in my mind or soul or even just a fraction of my pinky finger, I’m gonna rock the always popular Fake It Til Ya Make It strategy!
I am: Kind. Good with animals. Funny. Caring. Understanding. Goofy. I love: The arts. My dog. Voting (geeky pleasure of mine). Photographs. Water. London. Cooking. Learning. My friends. My parents. Reading. Writing. DC. I am loved by: My friends. My parents. My dog. I have goals and I am working my ass off to achieve them even when it feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I had the courage to quit my job and pursue something I care about. I paid for my own Masters degree. I can fold a fitted sheet!
All of these things that make up ME, and not a single one having anything to do with the number on the scale or the width of my hips - even though like Shakira, they don't lie. Of course this is not to say that measurements aren’t helpful ways of monitoring progress – I mean, the name of the effing blog is 100in12! But I just…need to focus on these things this coming week. A person can only make you feel bad if you let them, right? I won’t be defined by the size of my jeans, and if someone tries to, that is their personal problem and I feel sorry that they can only think so shallowly and narrowly.
Are YOU on the LAM!? Hehe. (I don’t even want to tell you how I thought of this. My train of thought is exactly like the bing.com commercials.)
25 September 2009
Food (apparently there is a movie called 'Screwed' so my food-stitution kind of works...okay I'm just not creative tonight!)
Breakfast:
*Banana
*Muesli/granola mix: 1 packet (two bars) crushed up Nature Valley Oats N Honey granola bars, blueberries, slivered almonds, 2 tbsp of plain yogurt and a drizzling of honey.
Snack:
*Apple
*2 tbsp peanut butter
*Can of V8
Lunch:
*Bowl of Madras Lentils soup
Delectable. It tastes like chili, but it’s vegetarian and spicy and pretty healthy, with lots of protein and fiber. Though the sodium is maybe a tad high. That’s one thing I’ve been paying attention too lately, but I don’t even really know how much I should have/figure into my day. Hmm. Any sodium watchers out there?
Dinner:
*Tuna and roasted red pepper sauce.
Twas okay. It was better last time when I added a LCL wedge in there.
I also had a cup of green tea today - I went to Starbucks to catch up with a friend from grad school. We had a good time and I was proud of myself to sticking to green tea amidst delicious pastries and sugary coffee drinks.
Not much else is going on. I'm just trying to refrain from freaking out too much in these last few days before The Family gets here. I just...can't. I know my emotions are running a little high but right now I am just dreading next week like you wouldn't believe.
*Banana
*Muesli/granola mix: 1 packet (two bars) crushed up Nature Valley Oats N Honey granola bars, blueberries, slivered almonds, 2 tbsp of plain yogurt and a drizzling of honey.
Snack:
*Apple
*2 tbsp peanut butter
*Can of V8
Lunch:
*Bowl of Madras Lentils soup
Delectable. It tastes like chili, but it’s vegetarian and spicy and pretty healthy, with lots of protein and fiber. Though the sodium is maybe a tad high. That’s one thing I’ve been paying attention too lately, but I don’t even really know how much I should have/figure into my day. Hmm. Any sodium watchers out there?
Dinner:
*Tuna and roasted red pepper sauce.
Twas okay. It was better last time when I added a LCL wedge in there.
I also had a cup of green tea today - I went to Starbucks to catch up with a friend from grad school. We had a good time and I was proud of myself to sticking to green tea amidst delicious pastries and sugary coffee drinks.
Not much else is going on. I'm just trying to refrain from freaking out too much in these last few days before The Family gets here. I just...can't. I know my emotions are running a little high but right now I am just dreading next week like you wouldn't believe.
Unusual Cravings
Here are some foods that I’ve been wanting recently:
*Cauliflower
*Edamame
*Cottage cheese (we ran out last week and I can’t stand it!)
*Every kind of squash ever…yellow, butternut, acorn, zucchini, you name it
*Baked Apples (OMG WANT)
Can I point out that these things are all HEALTHY?! Weird. Sometimes it surprises me how normal this feels to eat this way. It makes me feel good and 99% of the time it isn’t difficult. I fear getting too cocky because last time around I was. I said “I’m at [this weight] for the last time, never looking back” and I said “Under 200, never going there again”. And then I did. So I’m hesitant to feel confident in myself…it feels too easy right now. Sometimes I wonder if I’m still in the honeymoon phase of my weight loss, or if I’m finally getting down to business, because I already know what to do as I’ve been through it a million times. Am I really serious this time or is it just running on weight loss adrenaline and emotions?
Don’t get me wrong, though – I won’t spend my time thinking about it, because that’s what usually gets me in trouble. I’m just going to keep taking it one meal or snack at a time and that’s all I can do, with the occasional meal-planning-ahead. For example, I’m going to Cheesecake Factory next week with a bunch of people, and I’m trying to do some menu-scoping, though the nutritional value is hard to come by. There’s a Pear and Endive salad in their “weight management” section that looks pretty good…any suggestions?
And now, this:
OMG I LOVE THIS SHOW SO EFFING MUCH.
*Cauliflower
*Edamame
*Cottage cheese (we ran out last week and I can’t stand it!)
*Every kind of squash ever…yellow, butternut, acorn, zucchini, you name it
*Baked Apples (OMG WANT)
Can I point out that these things are all HEALTHY?! Weird. Sometimes it surprises me how normal this feels to eat this way. It makes me feel good and 99% of the time it isn’t difficult. I fear getting too cocky because last time around I was. I said “I’m at [this weight] for the last time, never looking back” and I said “Under 200, never going there again”. And then I did. So I’m hesitant to feel confident in myself…it feels too easy right now. Sometimes I wonder if I’m still in the honeymoon phase of my weight loss, or if I’m finally getting down to business, because I already know what to do as I’ve been through it a million times. Am I really serious this time or is it just running on weight loss adrenaline and emotions?
Don’t get me wrong, though – I won’t spend my time thinking about it, because that’s what usually gets me in trouble. I’m just going to keep taking it one meal or snack at a time and that’s all I can do, with the occasional meal-planning-ahead. For example, I’m going to Cheesecake Factory next week with a bunch of people, and I’m trying to do some menu-scoping, though the nutritional value is hard to come by. There’s a Pear and Endive salad in their “weight management” section that looks pretty good…any suggestions?
And now, this:
OMG I LOVE THIS SHOW SO EFFING MUCH.
Food Where's My Car?
Just a late kind of day all around! It’s almost 2:30 and I’m just getting in. One of my best friends is visiting for two weeks and I picked her up from the airport and then we went straight to some friends’ apartment to watch Grey’s, play Wii and be silly and watch YouTube. It’s how we roll. Good times – and according to my “10 Things About Me”, tonight checked off two! Airports AND my group of friends! Nicely done.
Now onto the food…meh. I got up late today, and food wasn’t on my mind until after I got home from getting my suit jacket, so I didn’t eat anything until 1pm today. Yeesh. Not good! So for lunch I had:
*toasted piece of whole grain bread
* ½ a cup of yesterday’s southwestern mix with ½ a stringed string cheese melted on top
*Can of V8
*Half an apple
It was okay. I ate the other half of the string cheese on its own. It was good. Those little string cheese things come in handy for melting stuff. The whole thing is only 80 calories.
Dinner:
*the rest of my chicken salad, about 1/2 of a cup (chicken, LCL wedge, craisins, diced apple
*tuna melt using: arnold’s sandwich thins, LCL wedge spread on top, about 1/3 a cup of tuna, and a stringed string cheese melted on top.
*glass of milk
*1/2 a cup of steamed broccoli
I took the advice of Ms. 266 ;-) and had some protein, and the broccoli. It definitely made me feel better! I’m sure tomorrow I’ll be back on track with regularly schedules meals/snacks and everything. I am thankful that I didn’t go crazy with food…when I was looking for my suit jacket, I stopped in Target (to see if they had anything) which was always my go-to place to buy chocolate and candy and Little Debbie stuff and stuff my face and then stash it under my bed…what’s up, closet eating! It was not good. Anyway, my brain, for just half a second, went to the idea of getting stuff, but I quickly pushed it out.
Temptation came again later in the evening in the form of Five Guys…for anyone who doesn’t know about the insane tastiness that is Five Guys…ask someone you know on the east coast. The burgers are SO GOOD and they literally give you a mountain of fries, and they are real potato and delicious. And the greasiest. They serve it to you in a brown paper bag and before you can get it home the bag is transparent from the grease soaking through. Gross, but the food is just. so. good.
We stopped there in between the airport and our friends’ apartment so my visiting friend could get some food. I walked in there with her, but made sure to leave my wallet in the car. And when we got to the apartment I made some 94% fat free popcorn, and shared it with everyone, so I only ended up having a little. I’m proud of myself that I resisted because her food smelled SO GOOD and even driving home my car still smelled like delicious heaven! Come to think of it, I should have driven with my windows down…but I didn’t. Anyway, it was a fun but long night, and now bed!
Oh PS – FAKE OUT on that job interview. They called me at 6:30pm this evening to tell me they were canceling the interviews because they had an internal candidate with whom they sped up the interview process and hired that person. Before they even talked to anyone else. Such is life. Le sigh. I’m totally keeping the suit jacket I bought though. And can I tell you the most irritating part of this whole thing? Couldn’t they have told me before I had to fill out that pesky ten page application with my employment history for the past ten years? I loathe those applications. Grrr! Oh well. On to bigger and better things, hopefully soon.
Now onto the food…meh. I got up late today, and food wasn’t on my mind until after I got home from getting my suit jacket, so I didn’t eat anything until 1pm today. Yeesh. Not good! So for lunch I had:
*toasted piece of whole grain bread
* ½ a cup of yesterday’s southwestern mix with ½ a stringed string cheese melted on top
*Can of V8
*Half an apple
It was okay. I ate the other half of the string cheese on its own. It was good. Those little string cheese things come in handy for melting stuff. The whole thing is only 80 calories.
Dinner:
*the rest of my chicken salad, about 1/2 of a cup (chicken, LCL wedge, craisins, diced apple
*tuna melt using: arnold’s sandwich thins, LCL wedge spread on top, about 1/3 a cup of tuna, and a stringed string cheese melted on top.
*glass of milk
*1/2 a cup of steamed broccoli
I took the advice of Ms. 266 ;-) and had some protein, and the broccoli. It definitely made me feel better! I’m sure tomorrow I’ll be back on track with regularly schedules meals/snacks and everything. I am thankful that I didn’t go crazy with food…when I was looking for my suit jacket, I stopped in Target (to see if they had anything) which was always my go-to place to buy chocolate and candy and Little Debbie stuff and stuff my face and then stash it under my bed…what’s up, closet eating! It was not good. Anyway, my brain, for just half a second, went to the idea of getting stuff, but I quickly pushed it out.
Temptation came again later in the evening in the form of Five Guys…for anyone who doesn’t know about the insane tastiness that is Five Guys…ask someone you know on the east coast. The burgers are SO GOOD and they literally give you a mountain of fries, and they are real potato and delicious. And the greasiest. They serve it to you in a brown paper bag and before you can get it home the bag is transparent from the grease soaking through. Gross, but the food is just. so. good.
We stopped there in between the airport and our friends’ apartment so my visiting friend could get some food. I walked in there with her, but made sure to leave my wallet in the car. And when we got to the apartment I made some 94% fat free popcorn, and shared it with everyone, so I only ended up having a little. I’m proud of myself that I resisted because her food smelled SO GOOD and even driving home my car still smelled like delicious heaven! Come to think of it, I should have driven with my windows down…but I didn’t. Anyway, it was a fun but long night, and now bed!
Oh PS – FAKE OUT on that job interview. They called me at 6:30pm this evening to tell me they were canceling the interviews because they had an internal candidate with whom they sped up the interview process and hired that person. Before they even talked to anyone else. Such is life. Le sigh. I’m totally keeping the suit jacket I bought though. And can I tell you the most irritating part of this whole thing? Couldn’t they have told me before I had to fill out that pesky ten page application with my employment history for the past ten years? I loathe those applications. Grrr! Oh well. On to bigger and better things, hopefully soon.
24 September 2009
Not enough energy to finish the sente
Man. I just have no energy to do anything today. I got enough sleep, so maybe it's the food? I have felt like I haven't been eating enough fresh fruits and veggies as of late, especially today. I had three things to do today, and I did them, but yeeesh. Barely.
My first task was finishing a job application that I have to take to my interview tomorrow, and the second was finding a suit jacket for said interview. Application finished. And I found a reallll cheap (but nice looking) suit jacket at Macy’s. The one I already own is a size 12...needless to say it doesn’t fit. I don’t particularly like the idea of buying more clothing when I am only going to (knock on wood) lose weight and hopefully never see the size again, but…sometimes you just gotta do it. And there is always tailoring, down the line. The one I got is $30 bucks, simple, black, and works with all the other business professional stuff I have. And it was in a size 20. Which, if math has taught me anything, is less than a size 24. I think my pant-size is probably still 24 or maybe a stuffed-sausage-casing-resembling-22. But it was nice to see that 20! And, one day, it’ll be nice to never see that 20 again, eh?
Third task: gym. I went to the gym, but barely. I just walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes at an embarrassingly leisurely pace, save for 10 minutes when I walked a little faster and cranked the incline up to 4.5 – I usually just keep it on 1.0, no matter if I’m jogging or walking – I still sweated a little bit but it didn’t energize me or make me feel any better.
Three things, and it felt like I was moving through molasses. I can't even muster up the energy to be annoyed with myself for complaining.
My first task was finishing a job application that I have to take to my interview tomorrow, and the second was finding a suit jacket for said interview. Application finished. And I found a reallll cheap (but nice looking) suit jacket at Macy’s. The one I already own is a size 12...needless to say it doesn’t fit. I don’t particularly like the idea of buying more clothing when I am only going to (knock on wood) lose weight and hopefully never see the size again, but…sometimes you just gotta do it. And there is always tailoring, down the line. The one I got is $30 bucks, simple, black, and works with all the other business professional stuff I have. And it was in a size 20. Which, if math has taught me anything, is less than a size 24. I think my pant-size is probably still 24 or maybe a stuffed-sausage-casing-resembling-22. But it was nice to see that 20! And, one day, it’ll be nice to never see that 20 again, eh?
Third task: gym. I went to the gym, but barely. I just walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes at an embarrassingly leisurely pace, save for 10 minutes when I walked a little faster and cranked the incline up to 4.5 – I usually just keep it on 1.0, no matter if I’m jogging or walking – I still sweated a little bit but it didn’t energize me or make me feel any better.
Three things, and it felt like I was moving through molasses. I can't even muster up the energy to be annoyed with myself for complaining.
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