healthy and happy. one of these days.

30 November 2009


Okay, we're officially on Day 2 of "Laura Ruins Her Efforts Watch 09".

For breakfast I had half a cup of veggie crunchers. They were not good.

Yeah. For lunch I finished the chinese food I had yesterday.

For dinner I had Chipotle. (Barbacoa fajita burrito with corn salsa, sour cream and cheese)

In between I had cheez-its. And diet coke. And one 12oz cup of water.

Right now I feel gross and tired. I was painting ALL day at my friends' condo. I am wiped and I feel gross from the food I chose to eat.

I don't know what to think. I wasn't talking any game last night - I really did feel it was behind me and I was ready to be healthy again. When I woke up today...I didn't want any part of it.

I don't know what to say. I can't say I'm going to get back on track tomorrow because I thought that yesterday and look what happened. But I'm not exactly about to plan for another day like this.

The only positive thing I did today was bring an apple and some all-bran crackers over with me to my friends' place. I didn't eat them, but I brought this barely counts at all.

I'm disappointed in myself. The food makes me feel gross and the emotions in response to choosing said food makes me feel gross and it's not easy to break that cycle.

I'm gonna get on the scale tomorrow morning and deal with the consequences and post it like I always do.

...I didn't want to write this post. I'm kind of embarrassed because I thought I was better than this.

*Boys, stop reading* I don't know what part of me is rebelling against all the work I've put in the past three months. Maybe the raging PMS side of me, I don't know. I don't remember going nuts last month. Gah. It may be a case of raging PMS, because I'm either constantly irritated or teary eyed over nothing, and I am craving the most ridiculous things that are terrible for me that I never want otherwise. And combined with working so hard and being tired, I give in.

Maybe I shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all, other than myself.

Right now I'm craving cold, refreshing, light things. That is at least a good sign. But I'm always more motivated at night for some reason, so regardless of those wants I have now tomorrow morning could turn into an entirely different beast. I hope not. I guess we'll see what happens.

Sigh. Sorry guys. This sucks.


Sara said...

LAURA!! (i don't think i knew your name until this post) dude you haven't ruined anything! you have filled yourself up, maybe even gained a pound or three of salt and restaurant food, but you are absolutely fine and tomorrow is monday. i ate cheesecake, stuffing, an arby's sandwich, and drank red wine and regular beers until i shit black, but guess what? tomorrow i will go back to my regularly scheduled ass-kicking and i expect to see YOUR FOOD POSTED IN THE REGULAR WAY. i'll be back tomorrow!

Foodie Girl said...

Don't apologize... exercise! lol... had to throw that in there. Stop kicking yourself. Just get back on track and you will be good to go. It's a small blip on the screen.

266 said...

Step away from the pringles!

First of all, you are not in a plateau... that literally takes weeks to establish. Secondly, a few days of the same weight is not uncommon; I have posted about this happening to me a few times. It is frustrating, yes, but it is nothing to be concerned about in the long run. Finally, put down the diet coke, pour yourself a water, and remember that you have not ruined anything. Start off tomorrow as a totally fresh day and, yes, I do mean that even if the scale shows you a twenty pounds gain. It is not worth the extra stress you will give yourself by sabotaging yourself more. There are many factors which contribute to weight gain/maintenance and I guarantee you that one of those is the sodium in Chinese food.

Come down off the ledge, Laura... give me your hand and let me make you a nice egg white omelet. Do you want carrot sticks with that? We can even go for a nice relaxing walk afterwards, okay? *grin* You will be fine. Breathe. And do not let this continue. Go back and read about some of your successes if you have to, but keep at this. I believe in you.


Rebecca said...

i agree, step away from the ledge....

berating yourself is not conducive. one weekend or a few days is not going to derail your efforts long term. just focus on one meal, or even one glass of water.

you can do this!

nic said...

If you exercise today, like... early, before or after breakfast, it will help get you into the mindset you need to be in for the day.

When I fly off the rocker for a couple days, I have a "fitness" day. I exercise in the morning, plan something active in the afternoon as well and then go to a class or something in the evening. KNOWING that my whole day will be centered around fitness really helps to keep me on track as far as FUELING my body, and then I burn a ton of calories too. The week is usually REALLY on track after that.


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