12-29

i got through it (so far, it's only about 7:30 right now) - another weekend, another hotbed of opportunities to compulsively eat. it's crazy how i didn't think about it a single bit this week, but then it's the weekend and i had "those feelings" again. i suppose i felt a little bit stronger than previous weeks, but, they're still there. luckily, a VERY long nap and a quick grocery store outing (ahem, trader joe's) helped to alleviate the thoughts.

anyhoodle, here's the 411 on the eats today. you know, if it were 1997 and that's how i talked.

breakfast:

two eggs, two apple maple chicken sausage links, and a crapload of grapes.

protip: when you ask your parents to pick you up some grapes from costco, BE READY TO EAT A LOT OF GRAPES.

post-gym snack (i did week 2 day 3 of c25k today) - gala apple and however much peanut butter that is

lunch: paneer tikka masala with half a piece of naan

dinner: 4-5 oz chicken with stir fry mix! (made with light olive oil and a little bit of soy sauce)

12-28

just eatin' mah dinner and bloggin'. on a friday night. i know, i know. i AM that cool.

since i AM that cool, we'll start backwards. dinner first! that's about 5 oz of chicken breast with trader joe's fresh stir fry mix, made with a little bit of lite olive oil and soy sauce. (yep, even the soy sauce is trader joe's brand. so is the chicken. ...i have a sickness.)

moving backwards, before my gym session with the trainer, i ate part of the starbucks' protein box - just the grapes, hard boiled egg and cheese. and yes, i did sprinkle that salt on the egg as i ate it, sodium be damned. some things are worth it, and that is one of them. the starbucks cup is filled with their spearmint green tea.

back, back  back it up: lunch was a (GASP OF ALL GASPS) trader joe's paneer tikka masala meal with half a piece of their tandoori naan.

finally, breakfast was remarkably trader joe's free, for once. a cup of coffee with half and half a fage yogurt cup and an apple (HAHA, WAIT - just as i wrote that, i realized, i got the apple AND the half and half from trader joe's. seriously, i go there once a week. EVERYTHING IS AMAZING)

do you think i can get a "jared the subway guy" type-deal from trader joe's? because, seriously. like everything i eat is from there.

i hope everyone has a fun and safe weekend!

12-27 wrap up

for dinner, as i mentioned earlier, i had thai takeout with friends. i got what i had scoped out on the menu, the "spicy garden" with tofu added. according to the description: "Sauteed mixed fresh vegetables in a spicy bean sauce" - and then i added tofu, because, delicious. the veggies were baby corn, cabbage, broccoli, cauliflower, i think i maybe saw an onion possibly, and mushrooms.

it was probably two servings but i ate the entire thing because i was starving - it had been about 7 hours since i last ate, poor planning on my part. but at least it was all veggies (and tofu).

oh and i drank about half of a diet coke, but mostly just drank water.

i also did week 2 day 2 of c25k today. it was much easier today than it was yesterday. tomorrow will be a session with the trainer, so that'll be....challenging, as it always is.

12-27-12 so far

i wanted to get this stuff in so far today, because i have a long (but fun!) rest of my day and i won't be at my computer for quite a while.

breakfast: 1/2 cup cottage cheese, and red seedless grapes, and a cup of coffee (caribou blend with half and half)

lunch: trader joe's harvest salad with grilled chicken (grilled chicken, green beans, corn, with dijon vinagrette...and the cheese and half a hard boiled egg i eat separately, because, OM NOM NOM)

and that's it so far today. i'm leaving work in about an hour to go meet my dearest lady friends at a bridal salon - we're all bridesmaids in a wedding next year (two weddings, actually, but that's neither here nor there) and we're trying on some dresses. and then heading back to the bride's apartment to meet back up with the men-folk and get some thai takeout and enjoy each other's company :)

(and yes, i already scoped out the menu, and there's a spicy veggie dish that looks like it might get the job done)

as an added bonus, i took a picture of one of my office desk drawers. my coworkers make fun of me for the mini-CVS i have going. but who do they come to when they need cold medicine or band-aids?! THIS GAL.

among other things, that's four different kinds of vitamins, allergy/sinus meds, brush, toothbrush/toothpaste, floss, makeup, lotion, deodorant, and YES, even a measuring cup. and yeah there's some candy in there too but i haven't touched that in weeks. i figure it's for coworker-emergencies now :)

12-26 wrap up, and, a brief conversation

so i bought new running/gym shoes today, because my old ones were giving me craaazy hurtz in my arches. once i had a pair selected (with the help of the store guy), i asked:

me: so what's their shelf-life?

store guy: they say about 400-450 miles

me: HAHAHA, SO, FOREVER?

store guy: ..........

me: .................

store guy: probably 8 months to a year?

me: sounds good.

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lunch: trader joe's bistro salad (kale, edamame, scallions, dried cranberries, toasted almond slivers, and a lemon herb dressing)

snack: fage greek yogurt with strawberry goji

dinner: stir fry with 2 eggs scrambled, with sriracha (the stir fry was made with a little light olive oil and a tbsp or two of soy sauce)

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also, i did day one, week 2 of c25k. with  my new shoes! and it was hard. really hard. the final interval, i ran for 15 seconds, caved and walked for 30 seconds, before i finished the final 45 seconds of running. to make myself feel better, i tacked on an extra minute of running after i finished the walking portion and some of my cool down. i can't leave well enough alone.

but i'm happy i went to the gym, and started the second week of c25k, even if it did kick my ass.

by the way, part two

i totally caved. i looked.

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the good: it's not as high as i thought it would be.

the bad: 247.4

the good: i'm back on track so far today**, and it feels pretty easy.

the bad: i haven't exercised since last thursday.

the good: **so far today:

cup of pumpkin spice coffee with half and half, and 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with however many red seedless grapes that is.

the bad: i totally should have titled last/this post "by the WEIGH" - how did i miss that opportunity?!

the good: i'm feeling better about myself these days.

the bad: christmas sometimes feels lonely for me . once i got the taste of dating someone during the holidays (that was all the way back in 2010) it's hard to go from that to back to single again. even if i feel better about myself, it still isn't fun to not have someone to go home to. i find christmas lights extremely romantic, damnit!

the good: the gift i got my parents made my mom cry :) granted, she's a crier, so i could have made her a macaroni necklace and she probably would have welled up, but, still.  :) happy christmas!

by the way...

last tuesday, i weighed myself and i was at 244. i'm afraid to check this week. i know it will be higher, since, at the very least, my carb intake has gone up so much since saturday.

so, i'm curious to see what it is, but i'm also afraid of shaming myself. i want to stay on top of it but i don't want to place too much emphasis on it. i want to see the damage done but i also DON'T want to see the damage done.

what would you do?

the rest of 12-24 and 12-25!

well, once again, no pictures. i would say i took a break with healthy eating, especially today.

so rounding up christmas eve, last night for dinner, we went to our family friends' house and i had:

(appetizers) crackers, cheese, dip (i would say 10 crackers maybe, with as many slices of cheese? maybe less? i'm not sure)
two glasses of champagne

dinner: glass of red wine, and a piece of beef tenderloin (5-6 oz probably?) 2/3 a cup of mashed potatoes, spinach salad, and broccoli casserole. i *think* that was it...i feel like i'm missing something though.

the dessert i mentioned yesterday? i had two bites that i stole from my family friend's plate ;-) it was more like, we said we'd share, and i made him eat most of it. i feel/felt fine about it.

12/25

breakfast: coffee with milk, and i had half of a cinnamon bun (non-iced), and two eggs over-medium with ketchup.

lunch: two hot dogs (in potato bread buns) with ketchup, and like 3 handfuls of kettle cooked potato chips with ranch dressing, and a diet root beer

"snack" aka "a relapse in compulsive eating": sad nachos, made with white corn tortilla strips and mexican four cheese blend, and a diet coke. even as i was eating it, i knew it was wholly unnecessary and out of boredom.

right before dinner, i ALMOST had a slice of the leftover pie from yesterday, but i changed my mind. i had one sole white chocolate peppermint m&m instead. shrug.

dinner: beef stroganoff with about 1/2 cup "dirty" rice, with about 1 cup of the beef/sauce part. and julienned carrots with basil and butter, romaine lettuce/cucumber/avocado salad with poppyseed dressing, and two crescent rolls.

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i had a wonderful christmas day, and i am hoping that tomorrow i won't feel too out of sorts about going back to salads, healthy things, a LOT less carbs, etc. thankfully I still feel okay about no/very little sugar so i don't anticipate that being a problem. also, mind you, i am fully aware that alcohol often can have a fair bit of sugar, but, i'm fine to just restrict myself on desserts :)

12-24 lunch

a coworker was nice enough to treat the few of us in the office today for lunch! this is panera's fuji apple chicken salad.

12-23 and 12-24 so far

i have NO pictures from yesterday! and apologies for the lack of posting, but i was over at my parents house all day (and spent the night there) and didn't have access to a computron to get all this up. but i can tell you what i ate:

breakfast/lunch: bologna and cheese sandwich (3 slices cheese/bologna, mayo, lettuce, 2 slices whole grain bread) with progresso chicken and corn chowder soup

snack: about a cup of goldfish

dinner: grilled cheese with ham, about 10-15 tater tots.

also i had like 3 or 4 diet root beers throughout the course of the day. and only one bottle of water. i almost feel worse about the soda than i do the food. the thing i know i overdid was the sandwich - i didn't need 3 slices of each thing.

i'm still pleased i avoided the sugary stuff in the house (aspartame-ridden diet soda aside) - there is SO much of it. white chocolate peppermint m&ms, like 3 different kinds of cookies, candy canes, etc. my mom already told me what tonight's dessert will be (peppermint ice cream pie, with an oreo cookie crust) and THAT is going to be tough to avoid. peppermint flavored things are my favorite. i'm still on the fence about whether or not i'll have any.

my mom also already told me that my stocking** will be filled with candy. but that i can just leave at their house, i don't have to take it with me. or bring it into the office, or something.

anyway, on to today. the crappy thing is that i have to be at work until 2pm. but the good news is that i can at least have a morning/afternoon back on track.

breakfast was yet again, a gala apple and 1-2 tbsp of peanut butter (pb&co's mighty maple) on whole grain bread, and a cup of coffee with half and half.

i also tweeted this picture. just because i'm AT work on christmas eve, doesn't mean i'm doing any :D

** what traditions do you and your family have for what goes into your stockings? in my family, it's always been whatever you can find at CVS. basically that means toiletries, and candy. and for some reason we've also always gotten a piece of fruit at the bottom of our stockings. ...that none of us ever eat. but we get it every year. not sure why my mom santa still does it. :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!