healthy and happy. one of these days.

05 December 2009

Meal Like Making Love

Okay, gotta get this up quickly so I can go back downstairs for more football!

Vitamins – check!

Water - 140oz!

Shredded today. Level 1. Man I can tell such a difference between now and when I first did it. Remember I quit 4 minutes in the first time? Yeesh. But now I’m sinking further in my push ups (still on the knees though!) and my butt-kicks are higher and I’m pushing myself more. I still have room to improve in the first level and I’m gonna keep at L1 for a little while longer. I wanna be able to do a real push up!


*cup shredded wheat with ½ cup skim milk and a handful of pom seeds (the last of them! Finally!)


*gala apple
*half a cup of coffee


*the rest of my fajita mix (chicken, onions, red peppers)


*peppermint hot chocolate
*100 calorie bag of 94% fat free kettle corn

(and then like half an hour later...)
*cup of veggie crunchers


*wrap: 100 calorie whole wheat wrap, tuna with mayo, 2 avocado slices, honey mustard, 6 bread and butter pickles, handful of baby spinach, a few diced onions. SO GOOD!

I also tried a new Zevia soda flavor – I tried Root Beer. It was definitely better than the Ginger Ale, but it still has kind of a really really sweet aftertaste that I’m not really sure I like. Especially because I don’t really drink soda anymore, and definitely not regular soda (even though it’s calorie free and whatever else, it’s still even sweeter than Diet Coke or something similar)

04 December 2009

Don't Just Stand There Bust a Food.

My girl Chai over at We Kin Get Thin did this today and I'm gonna follow. I'm a follower, and I'm cool with it. You can do it too in the comments or your own lovely blogspaces.

1. Who are you?

Hi! I'm Laura. I'm 26 and I live in the DC Metro area. I'm an only child so I'm part weird part bratty part trying to not be bratty. I love the Virginia Tech Hokies, Hello Kitty, office/craft supplies and music.

2. What is your current health/weight status?

I weigh 221.2, at least I did on Wednesday. I'm making it a point to NOT get on the scale until Monday. No peeking.

Other than being overweight, I think I'm fairly healthy, *knock on wood* no known illnesses. But my health is progressing. I'm progressing.

Mental health? Totally crazy.

3. What does being "healthy" mean to you?

Yeah, I'm just gonna go ahead and leave Chai's answer, it's perfect.

To me, being healthy means that you are -
a) at a weight that puts no added stress on your body and its functions.
b) in a physical condition that feels comfortable and able.
c) represented physically how you feel mentally and emotionally.

4. What is your ultimate goal?

Well, the title of this ol' blog is One Hundred in Twelve, so I would like to lose 100 pounds in a year. So my goal weight is 160, at least for now. When I get there (WHEN WHEN WHEN, not IF...I just have to keep saying that...) I'll reevaluate and see how I feel.

I want to be at a weight that I can maintain relatively comfortably, but still feel healthy and fit and confident and sexy and all that jazz. So we'll see what that is.

5. What is the biggest obstacle on your way to your goal?

That whole "mental health" thing. I don't think I'm legitimately crazy (except for about a week every month, I go nuts. Stupid hormones) but I do think I dabble in depression and whatever the clinical term for "excessive worrier" would be. I have raging insecurities and I've recently been realizing that I'm gonna have to start doing something about my emotions in addition to the extra poundage.

6. Who or what do you look up to the most, in regards to your goals?

I've actually never thought about this. I don't know if there's one ultimate person or thing - but I am inspired every day by all of you - a meal here, a new exercise here, and great attitudes as far as the eye can see.

Nic is honest and driven, Kat is me in a bizarro world, 105 in 365 is a great cheerleader, 266 is motivated and open, Janetha B is hilarious and inspirational, Mary has the attitude and self-worth I covet, Karen has accomplished SO much, Marisa is always so cheerful, Fat Bridesmaid is sassy and hilarious, and Sara works out like a champ.

That's just a small sampling of the many many blogs I read. I would go on but I'm too lazy to keep linking. Seriously.

7. If you could take a magic potion, instead of working for it, would you?

YEP! Done.

8. What do you look forward to the most?

Oh man, how much time do you have? I can't wait to not think about what angle might make me look thinnest in pictures. I can't wait to finally have the style I've always wanted. I can't wait to be proud of the way I look. I can't wait to finish what I've started and accomplish a MAJOR goal. I can't wait to walk briskly or go up flights of stairs and not be immediately winded. I can't wait to have the confidence and self-esteem I deserve. I can't wait to have the confidence to share my life with someone. I can't wait to not worry about weight limits for ANYTHING (sky diving, amusement parks, standing on chairs, etc).

I can't wait until the Outside Me accurately reflects the Inner Me.

9. What is the biggest lesson you've learned so far?

A setback doesn't mean complete failure.

10. Do you have any big rewards planned?

I'm really just interested in new clothing. I want a nice houndstooth-pattern coat when I finally get to goal weight. No other real rewards. Though I do need a haircut like nobody's business.


(And on to day-to-day boringness:)

Vitamins – check!

Water - 112oz! (Update: It's now 132oz!! I had a bottle as I was watching White Collar with my fam - does anyone else watch that show?! I love it. Not only for the man candy but it's pretty creative and slick.)

No gym or anything today. I did laundry and went on an epic search for tortillas that took almost three hours.


*egg subst. with a sprinkling of garlic salt, and sautéed zucchini, 1 LCL wedge and a big heap of salsa
*can of V8


*cup veggie crunchers
*cup peppermint hot chocolate


*baked sweet potato fries (half a sweet potato, seasoned with paprika and cumin)
*fajitas (chicken, red peppers and onions) on a low carb/high fiber tortilla and 2 tbsp light sour cream


*skinny cow ice cream cone

Okay, do you know why there was no lunch? Because I was going to make the fajitas for lunch instead – and I went out searching for a particular type that we were out of. I was gone for almost three hours. And then I found them at the store that was a mile from my house. To my credit, I started farthest away because I wanted to listen to my newly made Glee CDs and so I was cool with taking the long way :-) And then I just wanted to get home and freaking get something to eat!!! GEEZ.

Luckily the wait was worth it, ‘cause they were exactly what I wanted…since yesterday when Kat had fajitas and then I wanted them. Copycat. I iz one.

03 December 2009

Make You Meal My Love

It's daily report time.

Vitamins – check!

Water - It's either 120oz or 140oz, I can't remember if I had one or two water bottles this afternoon. Sometimes they all run together and I forget. Either way it's pretty good!

Got myself to the gym today – it was a mini-struggle to do so. Not really sure why. The day started out fairly lazy, as I didn’t get out of bed until 11am. I KNOW.

(So I suppose my “Breakfast” was really closer to lunchtime, but whatever. I can’t just jump on into a lunch-type meal even if I get up at 1 in the afternoon! My first meal of the day needs to be breakfast-y. It just has to.)

I waited until almost 5pm to go. But I got there and did a 40 minute elliptical course (Up/Down Hill) and a 5 minute cool down. I was sweating! (said in Forest Gump “I was running!” voice)


*arnold’s thin with 2 tbsp peanut butter
*can of V8


*cup veggie crunchers


*sandwich: toasted arnold’s thin, tzatziki sauce, roasted red pepper, baby spinach, 3 avocado slices
*baby carrots and hummus (sabra individual size)
*glass/cup of milk


*pizza: arnold’s sandwich thin, 14 pieces turkey pepperoni (7 per side) 3-4 tbsp marinara, 1 stringed string cheese


*Skinny Cow ice cream cone

02 December 2009

(You Make Me Meal Like) A Natural Woman

A quick post before I'm off to watch Glee :-)

Got my butt to the gym today. Was totally inspired after watching The Biggest Loser: Where Are They Now thing – with Matt running the ironman triathlon!? That is beyond amazing and I totally teared up when he was being cheered on by everyone at the end. Emotional.

Before I go into my gym shenanigans, I want to announce that I made the executive decision to start saying “run” exclusively instead of “jog”. Because Run sounds better. Because one person’s Run is another person’s Jog, and vice versa. So I’m gonna give the self-esteem a boost by calling what I’m doing Running from now on.

I didn’t quite do a triathlon at the gym, but I worked it out. I did another mile! Except this time I did it at 4.9mph! I walked one minute to start and then ran until 13:30, which means I ran an extra 15 seconds just for funsies. 4.9 is a 12:15 minute mile, or 12:16 thereabouts - I got a chance to see it come up right when I first cranked it up an extra notch hehe.

After the mile I did three machines, then climbed back on the treadmill and ran at 6mph (okay this really was RUNNING for me!) for a little under three minutes! The display timer was 3:18 when I finished, but maybe 20ish seconds of that was walking and waiting to enter my weight and then speed up to 6mph! I’m guessing it was 20 seconds, I don’t really know. But it was definitely close to three minutes at 6mph, which is the most I’ve ever run at that speed.

After that mini cardio boost, I did three more machines and called it quits.

A nice return to the gym. :-)


*oatmeal with unsweetened applesauce (half a cup dry instant oats, 1 cup water, half a cup unsweetened applesauce. A GIANT serving for 200 calories. Boom. Thanks to Karen for this suggestion because I’m going to eat it like everyday throughout winter now.)
*half a sliced gala apple


*the other half of the sliced gala apple!

Lunch/Dinner: (I had a biiiiiig meal because I was headed over to my friends’ condo for more painting, etc. and it was too late for a separate lunch and THEN a dinner, so I combined the two for a big linner!)

*cup veggie crunchers
*Tastybite Madras Lentils soup
*sandwich: roasted red pepper, toasted arnold’s thin, 2 tbsp tzatziki sauce

Water - @ 100oz right now, but I have one more 20oz refill I’m workin’ on. So I’ll probably end up at 120oz for the day.

And I did indeed take my vitamins today.

Challenge Wednesdays Week 5 Edition

I think Taylor needs to see a Scale Therapist – she might be bipolar.

My weight today?


What is wrong with you, Taylor?! You are so strange!!

So I guess this means I maintained for this most recent Challenge Week. Bizarre.

I still have to face the music for Challenge Wednesdays – my goals were not really met at all.

*keep tracking water (I forgot a couple of days)
*take vitamins everyday (Only took them maybe 2 or 3 times, I forgot)
*do abs work more days out of the week than not (Didn’t do any at all!)
*exercise on Thanksgiving! Sweat it out! CHECK!

One goal out of four.

Hm, for this next week?

*Go back to the gym! I haven’t been since Friday.
*Track water again, and drink MORE of it
*Do the Shred DVD at least once

Here are my Challenge Weigh-Ins so far:

Week #1 11/4/09 (229.8)
Week #2 11/11/09 (226.4)
Week #3 11/18/09 (224)
Week #4 11/25/09 (221.2)
Week #5 12/2/09 (221.2)

An unofficial goal would be to get out of the 220s (and stay out!) in the next couple of weeks. I only have 3 left!

Before I forget...

I got this award from a couple of fantastic people!

The Rules & Regulations are as follows:

Each Superior Scribbler must in turn pass the award on to five most deserving bloggers

Each Superior Scribbler must link to the author and the name of the blog from whom s/he has received the award.

Each Superior Scribbler must display the award on his/her blog, and link to The Scholastic Scribe, which explains the award.

Each blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit this post and add his/her name to the Mr Linky List. That way, they'll be able to keep up-to-date on everyone who receives this prestigious honor.

Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.

Foodie Girl
LowFat Kat

The lovely ladies above gave me the SS award and I am to pass it on to "five most deserving bloggers".

Well FIRST OF ALL, every single blogger is deserving. So I'm gonna go crazy and just tell you to look to the right of my page and just check 'em all out. They're all good. I know this is a lazy cop-out, I'm sorry!

01 December 2009

One Food Over the Cuckoo's Nest

Okay, seriously? Today was annoying because I’m forgetful. I packed all my gym stuff and had it with me, made a nice lunch and snack for post-work pre-gym drive home…and guess who forgot the food on the kitchen table. This kid. Hrrmph.

All I had with me from breakfast to dinner was a granola bar. I ate it, but…meh. I had to run a lot of errands and walked a lot today (maybe 45 minutes to an hour in total) but I’m not really sure how to count it.

I refuse to go to the gym if I don’t have anything in my stomach – it just seems like too dangerous of a thing to do. So I went home to eat dinner (the lunch that I packed myself) and now I’m too tired (because I didn’t eat enough today and I didn’t want to load it all up this evening) to go to the gym.

I am totally making excuses like a champ right now. I’m also coddling myself because I got rejected from not one but TWO jobs today. I’m super good at pouting, you guys. It’s the only-child-that-never-grew-up in me, which is like 75% of me.

Doing nothing is the only thing I can muster right about now - what I want to do is go downstairs and fix myself a giant slice of pie and ice cream. Or scour the house for chocolate. But I'm not going to do either.


*quaker instant oatmeal – cinnamon roll flavor


*Nature Valley Honey N Oats granola bar pack (2 bars)


*pizza sandwich: arnold’s thin, 9 pieces turkey pepperoni, 1 stringed-string cheese, 2 tbsp marinara
*cup veggie crunchers

30 November 2009

Meal My Kisses

Today I ate pretty minimally, but it was all healthy. And to be honest a day of light food feels pretty good. It was another day at my friends’ condo. I had breakfast and went over there, and said no to the delivery pizza and instead came home to make myself lunch and then went back over there, then had dinner with leftover snacks of my own – I refused the Chick-fil-A that my friends were buying for everyone for helping.

So the option to eat poorly was there but I said no, and I’m pleased with that.

I didn’t exercise, but I was busy painting all day, up and down ladders and I am a little bit sore!

I get a day off of painting tomorrow, but it’s only because I have some temp work lined up! I’m gonna get a good night’s sleep and I plan on packing gym clothes and go there straight from work tomorrow.

Water intake was only 60oz because our water supply at the condo (the fridge and even the sink) were underneath plastic drop-cloths and sealed off with painters tape for half the day so I had to ration my water bottle! It was kind of ridiculous. But I only had water today (besides the milk with breakfast), so that’s a plus.


* egg sandwich: 1 LCL wedge, egg subst, ketchup, 1/8 of an avocado sliced, toasted arnold’s thin
*glass of milk


*cup cottage cheese
*sandwich: turkey breast, avocado, tzatziki sauce


*gala apple
*18 all bran crackers


Okay, I will get back to doing three things soon:

*my regular sometimes-clever post titles
*commenting on your blogs
*posting my food as normal (heh, Sara, that made me laugh)

Sorry for the freak-out, and thank you for your comments, they helped. I went to bed feeling relatively better, and after a night of good sleep I feel better.

Except for the scale thing, which is expected!


I just have to remember I'm still the same person that's losing weight, that cares about her health, that is the same person last Monday as she is today, even after a "bad" weekend.

I had a good breakfast, and now I'm off for more condo renovations. I know my friends will be happy when they can finally move in and be done with the projects, and I think I will be too. Yeesh.

Anyway, thanks again for all your support - it really helped these past couple of days! I have been too tired and worn down to give it to myself.



Okay, we're officially on Day 2 of "Laura Ruins Her Efforts Watch 09".

For breakfast I had half a cup of veggie crunchers. They were not good.

Yeah. For lunch I finished the chinese food I had yesterday.

For dinner I had Chipotle. (Barbacoa fajita burrito with corn salsa, sour cream and cheese)

In between I had cheez-its. And diet coke. And one 12oz cup of water.

Right now I feel gross and tired. I was painting ALL day at my friends' condo. I am wiped and I feel gross from the food I chose to eat.

I don't know what to think. I wasn't talking any game last night - I really did feel it was behind me and I was ready to be healthy again. When I woke up today...I didn't want any part of it.

I don't know what to say. I can't say I'm going to get back on track tomorrow because I thought that yesterday and look what happened. But I'm not exactly about to plan for another day like this.

The only positive thing I did today was bring an apple and some all-bran crackers over with me to my friends' place. I didn't eat them, but I brought this barely counts at all.

I'm disappointed in myself. The food makes me feel gross and the emotions in response to choosing said food makes me feel gross and it's not easy to break that cycle.

I'm gonna get on the scale tomorrow morning and deal with the consequences and post it like I always do.

...I didn't want to write this post. I'm kind of embarrassed because I thought I was better than this.

*Boys, stop reading* I don't know what part of me is rebelling against all the work I've put in the past three months. Maybe the raging PMS side of me, I don't know. I don't remember going nuts last month. Gah. It may be a case of raging PMS, because I'm either constantly irritated or teary eyed over nothing, and I am craving the most ridiculous things that are terrible for me that I never want otherwise. And combined with working so hard and being tired, I give in.

Maybe I shouldn't blame anyone or anything at all, other than myself.

Right now I'm craving cold, refreshing, light things. That is at least a good sign. But I'm always more motivated at night for some reason, so regardless of those wants I have now tomorrow morning could turn into an entirely different beast. I hope not. I guess we'll see what happens.

Sigh. Sorry guys. This sucks.

29 November 2009

The Ugly Foo(d)th (okay, this one's a stretch, I'll admit!)

Today. Ugh. It’s now technically tomorrow. 3am and I am just getting home…yikes.

I’m going to be completely honest. Remember how I was okay with Wednesday’s number, and it’s just a day, and blah blah? Well, I have gotten on the scale every morning since Wednesday just to see what the deal was (just because I only report once a week doesn’t mean I’m not constantly curious!) and was consistent at 221.2. Even Friday morning after Thanksgiving. I look this morning…it was a fucking pound HIGHER than Friday. Are you kidding me?

I was okay with Wednesday's number. But not with that one.

I was pissed. So I decided to be a five year old and act out all day, by eating whatever I damn well pleased. It’s just – yesterday was not easy on me to keep myself in check and get to the gym…and this is what I get?

So I’m probably cutting off my nose to spite my face. But I got it out of my system and I’m ready to get back to eating healthfully and exercising tomorrow and I just hope it doesn’t take a big chunk out of the work I’ve done. And I’ll just be patient on those progress pictures.

For breakfast, I had a GIANT bowl of stuffing. Seriously enormous. I then went back over to my friend’s new condo to help paint and sand things, and I had a couple of Diet Cokes, and brought some chocolate-covered raisins over with me. One, to eat some, but two, to get most of them out of the house so that when my sanity returns they will be gone!

So there were chocolate raisins and Diet Coke.

THEN we ordered Chinese for lunch and I got chicken lo mein and pretty much dominated it. I didn’t eat the entire thing, but I ate a lot of it…it wasn’t great on my stomach and I won’t be missing it now that I’ve had it, that’s for sure.

More chocolate covered raisins and a Diet Coke later, I went over to a different friend’s place for dinner – I picked up Subway and had a 6-inch turkey on wheat with lettuce, light ranch, black olives and banana peppers, and I had the guy take some of the bread out. Oh and I had some pretzels with honey mustard and iced tea. So dinner wasn’t really that bad. I considered the ranch on the sandwich and the pretzels/honey mustard the indulgent part.

After dinner and quality time there, I went back to my friend’s new condo for MORE painting! And there were more chocolate-covered raisins and a Diet Coke I think.

And now I’m finished. I don’t feel completely awful but I don’t feel great either.

My main emotion right now is worry. I’m worried that I’m hitting a plateau and that would really be frustrating. Because these next twenty pounds are really important to me. The last time I was taking off these twenty pounds (220s to 200 or so) I really started having fun, and seeing the changes in my body, liking myself in pictures, and my confidence grew a lot.

I’ve really been looking forward to this part and…I just don’t want the hassle of a plateau. I really don’t.

I won’t stand for it! Maybe this day of bingeing will help (*HA* says my inner voice). It’s definitely pulling the ol’ switcheroo on my body – oh you like nutrients? Here have MSG instead! – so as I’m back on track tomorrow my body can realize how good it’s had it these past few months and behave itself!

(Meanwhile…it was just my scale freaking out and I ruined a perfectly good week for nothing because I irrationally flipped out over a number….I’ll choose to ignore this option because I’M ALWAYS RIGHT. Or something…)


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